A few thoughts from my heart.

I was working on a purple crotcheted hat when I looked down and saw this pink heart on my lap.
I have no idea how it got there. It had been 24 hours since I had worked with that color. And I certainly hadn't shaped it there on my lap.
Funny how things just happen.
Life is like that.

I don't generally subscribe to resolutions because we all have the choice to make a change at any time. That being said, we gladly left 2009 behind and hope that 2010 brings encouragement, hope, and changes in positive directions for us.
Of course, change doesn't always come easy and many of the changes we hope to make in 2010 are going to be difficult-- but necessary.
And we pray the end results will be positive for our family.
We've just left the first month of the year behind and not much has changed for us. In fact, I declared, between sobs last week, that I feel like we're spinning our tires in deep, thick mud! We've attempted to make some moves but seem to have only encountered slammed doors. Now we're looking for windows.

One BIG CHANGE for 2010 we've already set in motion is that we are placing all three of our horses (Pholly, MaGee and Kid) for sale. We hope to find new homes for them quickly. My heart needs for this to just happen so it can heal and move on. We'll be sad to see them go, for sure. We've agonized over this decision since last summer. I've cried-- sobbed- felt the pain in my heart- put it off & tried to ignore it but... It is just necessary. There are positives on the other side of the decision that I'm hanging on to. Finding great new homes for them will ease the pain.

Parenting is certainly changing its face for us. It's one crazy beast that morphs from one form to another. We see areas we need to change, mistakes we've made and need to fix quickly before it's too late, things we are happy we're doing and would like to do more. I plan to blog more on this soon.

Speaking of blogging: It is my goal to keep this up to date this year. I have some personal goals where my love for photography is concerned that I hope to incorporate into my blog. One task I've set before myself is to capture ONE image from my day to share here. The idea seems to be in keeping with giving you a peek in my windows. That's not always easy because there's the risk of vulnerability. A friend shared a great quote today that says it best:
"A dog has lots of friends because he wags his tail and not his tongue."
So true.

We've reached 2010 and we're into our late 30's... supposedly "all-grown-up".. and we're just now figuring out what we really want to do "when we grow up". ::insert laughing here::
That's not really fair, is it? I mean... what we really want to do is a far cry from what we are doing! Sheesh! (And thus we encourage our kiddos to take their time! There's no hurry when you're in your late teens and even your early twenties- I mean REALLY!)
So 2010 will involve much research... much pondering... some simplifying and hopefully putting some "ducks in a row". Whether we make drastic changes in the end or not only The Lord knows. But it can't hurt to take steps toward improvement- right?

And back to that heart...
next to pursuing wisdom (Proverbs 4:7)...
I hope to guard mine well and in turn encourage my children to do so as well.

"ABOVE ALL ELSE, GUARD YOUR HEART,
FOR IT AFFECTS EVERYTHING YOU DO."
~Proverbs 4:23

Now how did that pink yarn heart get there?

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Change!

You wouldn't think that moving 5 or 6 feet across the room would be such a big change but it can be! You see, I'm posting this blog from my recliner- sitting about 5 or 6 feet from our desktop 'puter. Yep! A nice warm laptop is sitting on my lap.

But what a huge change! First of all, there's the setting up of said laptop. A wireless router installation took me far longer than it should have. I'm a "geek wannabe" you see. Likely a dangerous one at that. I'm not afraid to explore places that I probably shouldn't be on the 'puter. It's a control thing I'm sure. But I was a little tied up with the wireless router!

Dad called to see how I was making out. He gave me some explanations & some advice- advice that included, "Hon! Call the 1-800 number if those things don't work. You've already spent 3 hours on this." My response went something like--> Ugh! I hate those 1-800 numbers! I always end up with some tech who can barely understand, much less speak English. Then I have to try to explain what I don't understand to a person who can barely understand English. And of course, it goes without saying that I will barely be able to understand their explanation because of their poor grasp of the language.

Nope! I'd rather poke around in places I shouldn't be for hours than endure that! LOL Stubborn, I guess!

But don't worry! Dad saved the day. I followed his instructions and was soon mobile! Hooray!

Of course, now comes the task of loading my creature comforts. Software that I prefer. And OH NO! This computer doesn't remember all of my passwords yet! Fortunately, it is learning quickly and so am I.

But who ever would have believed that moving such a short distance could be such a huge change!

Bare with me while I get my bearings again! ;)